been away for quite long ba. wana be alone and away for a while. readi tired of life. i no most ppl out there. ppl who i know or dunno will face de same pro.feelin realli low. mayb due to rain ba. how i wish i cn be refresh all over by killin myself. i felt i let down my parents, brothers, friends, cousins and my meiis. for many years i hav owas been a happi person, love life no matter wad. now... haiz, bt whenever i seen ppl wif happy look on thier faces i will smile and somtime 4get tinkin some tings for a few sec. bt kiip tellin myself to try push on. 5 years.. 10 years.. 20 years... hope i am able to make it. realli realli wish gt a older brothers takin care of mi. realli veri siick and tired of been de oldest. mostly felt am lookin after tis family alone. and lastly i realli realli don like my life`!!!!!!!!!. i don no wad cause tis change in mi. seein both my bro will be havin betta life dan mi. many many mre tings to sae. don wana continure.bt i wana sae is i realli wan to thx my brosthers friends and meis for tokin some sense in mi. they are there for mi. stop till here and sae wad happen past daes ba.
2dae went work. wake up early and found out it still rainin since ytd. ite was late for mre dan half an hr dur to jam and flood of water. was veri slack de whole dae.shoe and sock was oledi so wet even b4 i start work. shit lo.end work jiiu wait for 138 for soo long lo. mre dan 35min. dan finllay jiiu reach lo. along tompson road there gt road block lo. so de bus gt to stop there fo abt 15 to 20 min tokin to de policeman.cuz in front was full of water. they block de whole road to it lo. sian lo. dan gt two women beside mi cnt stand them lo. kiip tokin among themself dat de bus cn chiong wan lo blah blah blah blah. cnt stand them lo. dan tis guy was standin in front of mi. so KPO lo kiip on lookin and lookin wad happen. see see nbms lo. bt come so near mi and see lo,like wan smell my breast like dat.is like die die oso muz see wad happen wan lo. stoopid lo. ite i cnt take it jiiu half way when de bus driver tokin to de policeman i ask cn open de door for mi to go out lo. dan jiiu went out walk to bus stop. dan itr some ppl jiiu follow mi lo. there 4 buses of 138 jam 2gether leh. de flood realli veri deep lo. dan jiiu take cab home as de road been block so no mre bus will come in lo. wad a shit dae. jam for almost 2 hr out there. tml don wan go work. shoe so wet how to go. hack care liao la.
16-12-06
went to ah pek hse at 4 plus to cebrat my ah ma bdae ^^ reach le jiiu play wif dog watch tv and chat wif cousins. dan at 7 plus jiiu go one resturtant eat. quite nice la. dan sing bdae song and take pic. after so long finllay seen my ah ma been realli happy. seein her happy wo jiiu feel content le. not only her bt to all de ppl i no. at 11 plus jiiu reach home le.realli had fun.
lifestillgoeson`~
HIS FAMILY TO STAY HAPPY
HIS BROS & MEIIS TO STAY CHEERFUL
NEW CLOTHS
REALLY REALLY 4GET DE PAST
OWN ROOM GT AIR-CON
CHANGE MYSELF
OWN CAR
PASS MY TP
DO WELL FOR HIGHER
NEW COMPUTER
To Be With Her Always : )